Mirabel was my sister, the only person I trusted, and my best friend. She was capable of making me smile no matter what, and was the cause of the only good picture day photo I have. Its the little moments I miss the most, the signs of other life in the house at midnight, her yelling at me to leave her room, everything feels so much more empty and lifeless without her. She always had her inner demons I just never knew they were this bad, she was, even near the end, always hopeful and optimistic, she was never scared of letting other people see her emotions and despite being one of the smartest, most patient person I knew, capable of using restraint in so many things that I found all but impossible, she considered herself inferior, sometimes I think maybe I shouldve let her know more often how smart she really was, how brave she really was and how caring she really was, she was able to move schools in the middle of the pandemic and still make a bunch of new friends in a situation I wouldve shit my pants in. I remember how one of her favorite songs was If we Have each other by Alec Benjamin, how she loved it because it reminded her of us and how we would always be there for each other no matter what. I miss her so much, I miss the life she gave to everyone around her, her ability to make amazing friends no matter where she went she was always friendly and was never afraid of anything, people or animals and was always willing to talk to new people. I miss how she always wore the same pair of fuzzy pj pants with donuts on them, her smile when she teased me for being an idiot, I miss the fights we had over petty things like a couch seat, food or computers. I miss how I used to always buy her something whenever I went to any store to buy trinkets or candy, and how she managed to make a bag of candy last for half a week while I ate mine in a few hours. I miss everything about her and every day that life goes on I feel like Ive lost more and more. She was my favorite person in the world and there's so many things I wish I could have said to her before everything happened. I miss her more than anything and I love her so much. She always had self worth issues and anxiety, and she never seemed to realize just how amazing she really was and I wish, above all else, that I could have shown her how everyone else saw her.